GYM INDUCTION!

Today was the day when we made the commitment to change! Gym induction…. which I might add I have been dreading. The anxiety levels were high, different place, different expectations and hope I could formulate some sort of coherent response to the trainer, which seems to be sadly lacking at present. I avoid new situations like the plague, as I can't think, its ok to appear crazy with people you know but in public you at least want people to think you are ok! But Pete attended with me so there was no getting out of it. I changed in the ladies room and could feel my tongue going numb and my legs turn to jelly, how bazaar for someone like me that, before all the health issues was used to juggling a whole tea service of plates! But went in to see Chris the induction chap… who was very well versed in many of the health issues I face. He put my mind at ease and we continued the induction, with every bit of apparatus having a proviso for my use! We completed the induction, and I think the thing I take from today, is stop harping on about the past, i.e. how fast I used to run, how fit I used to be, how I used to be mentally. I hadn't really thought about it, but these are in fact negative responses, I need here and now. It is just how it is and it is up to me to accept it and make the most of my journey from here on in, difficult and frustrating some days to do that, but I am going to try. I will never be like i used to be, It will be an unachievable goal if i continue to set and strive for this. So lesson one for today heard, and learning! I am glad we went and I have booked in the next session on Monday. I will try to update this blog, one so I can see the journey, how ever far it gets and two to maybe shed some light and help for anyone else? Who knows. Its wasn't long ago I couldn't walk up a flight of stairs or breath at all and definitely not string a sentence together…. so I must remember how far I have come, and not how far I may not get.